just dance

It's a pretty fun thing, dancing. I've always thought so, which is really ironic, since I tend to hate anything that I'm bad at. I guess I shouldn't say that I'm bad at dancing. I'm not really. even though it's unlikely anyone will ever know. (i tend to demean the things i'm good at, 'cause i don't like myself that much) I've always wondered why I am the way I am. I'm always trying to figure myself out, but in the end, I don't think I'm half as hard to figure out as I always thought I don't want people to see the things I'm good at, because if they don't think I'm any good, then they can steal the things I'm good at. of course, they can't really steal them, but I think that they can, so I let my fear take over. so in the end I just hide away, and today no one will see me dance. but I'd like to think that someday, I'll bloom into someone who won't care what anyone thinks of her (i'm wanted be inspirational, so i'll end on a happy note) Half the time I don't believe in myself and half the time I do. So most of the time, I'm trapped between knowing and not knowing, between trying and running away I've been starting to grow up and I can't believe how old I am, I can't believe that someday, I'm going to be off on my own, living my life without guild lines without mom and dad to hold my hands and I don't want to be scared while I'm living that life I can already feel it starting so tonight I''m not going to worry about who is going to be at my performance i'm going to stand up there and i'll just dance